Starting Over, Again

Ok, I've messed around for the first half of the year and I weigh 3 pounds more than I did at the beginning of the year. Argh! The worst thing is that my body fat percentage has increased to more than 42%. I'm embarrassed to put that down. Enough. I've decided to go back to the basics. I logged back into Spark People and will begin recording my intake and output again. I have resisted doing this just because it becomes another opportunity for me to fail, but I have to do something. My first day I went 300 calories over my max. That's ok since it is a weekend, but I can't believe I ate so much. The most telling thing is that I'm at the high end of my fat calories and at the low end of my protein. I'll fix that this week.

Today is my baby's birthday. I can't believe he is a grown man – 31. That makes me, well, old. But I don't feel old, just empty. It seems like yesterday that he was a little boy, but he's all grown up. I wish I could go back and have a do over. I'd pay much more attention to my children and much less attention to my job.

Happy birthday son!