The Biggest Loser, Not

It is ridiculous. Style TV is running past seasons of The Biggest Loser. I've Tivo'd them on the TV in my bedroom and watch them obsessively. Obsessive is the key word. It is sick probably. But I love to watch the weigh-ins and see people drop 7-20 pounds in one week. It is totally amazing that people can do that. Of course, they work out for endless hours and eat next to nothing – fish and chicken and steamed vegetables.

Every day I say I'm going to start doing that. I used to work out – maybe not that hard, but every single day. I was up at 4:45 today and don't have to go to leave for work until 7:30. So what do I do? I don't work out, I watch the season 2 finale for the umpteenth time. Every day I get up and say, "Today, I'm going to eat healthy." Then my husband calls me at work and says he wants to make his world famous hamburgers for dinner and I say "OK". (They are really good). And since we're eating beef, we have that really good bottle of cabernet that goes so well with it. And I eat and drink and watch TV and go to bed. And there goes another day with no workout and no healthy eating.

I made chicken fajitas for breakfast with the leftovers from last night. They were almost as good leftover, but I don't even know what the calorie content was. After logging my eating at Spark People for over a year, I just absolutely cannot bring myself to do it right now. It didn't make a difference anyhow. I just felt depressed about my failure and beat myself up for it. I downloaded Dr. Monte's book on successful weight loss and I know all this material he presents is true. But I find myself in a hole that I am having a terrible time digging myself out of.

So today I am declaring "No more!" Instead of trying to be an overnight success and completely change my lifestyle in a flash, I'm just going to work at getting healthier – a little bit at a time. Like Petra said in Dr. Mone's interview, NO MORE EXCUSES. I really want to get the energetic feeling back I had when I worked out regularly – when I was in training for my marathons or a bike trip. I really want to not wiggle when I run. I really want to feel comfortable in my clothes. What will I weigh next year if I don't start now? What will I weigh next year if I only lose a pound a week – or ½ a pound a week? NO MORE EXCUSES.