Over the line

Argh! I calculated my BMI at one of the fitness websites today. I've officially crossed over into obesedom. I can feel it. I'm carrying so much weight around my middle. My backside moves in a different direction from me. My thighs have an extra layer on top of the muscle. I feel fat! I am fat!

Not too soon, I'm getting on the bandwagon again! I've been weighing myself only on the first day of the month since I tend to obsess about the scale so much - I got into weighing morning and evening and taking the best number. So I only weighed today to get my new start point - and I'm obese. I can't stand it any more.

Knowing that I've crossed the line, maybe I can stay motivated to get this weight off. Also, publicly proclaiming my fat is kind of like an alcoholic at the AA meeting. "Hi, I'm BS and I'm fat".

I'm resorting to rather drastic measures for a jump start. I'm doing the Medifast diet for as long as I can hold out. Right now the plan is for four weeks. We'll see how it holds up. It hasn't helped that I've spent the last year in home chef mode. I've spent more hours in the kitchen in the last year than I did in the gym. I guess I'll have to reverse that!